I'll admit, it was a hard decision Even though I was in love with Northern the second I stepped on campus, I was mostly afraid of what others would say when I said I was going there. I worried endlessly about "selling myself short" and "pleasing my parents". When you get the vibe that the people around you want something different than you do, it gets harder and harder to speak your own opinion. I felt like I was suffocating. My parents were pushing one place (though discretely I picked up on it after a while), a family friend was pushing me another place (someplace I didn't even apply), and my mind was pushing me in a completely different direction.
Even after I had made my decision, I kept it to myself, afraid of people being disapproving. When I finally told people, I got mixed reactions. But I decided that the worst thing I could have done was gone with what others wanted instead of what I wanted. I am extremely happy to be attending Northern Michigan this fall. And it was the biggest relief to finally make a decision. I went with my gut feeling for this one, and it was close, but I am satisfied with my choice. I chose Northern for multiple reasons. (1) It was the farthest university that could offer me in-state tuition with out-of-state new experiences. (2) They have a great psychology program where I can work with professors on research as a Freshman. (3) It's absolutely beautiful and it offers a lot of things for me to do outside (things I love but never seem to have time for in the suburbs) and (4) I liked the general vibe I got while I was there. People are genuinely friendly, and being rather shy myself, I thought maybe it could rub off on me. All in all, I'm ready for this new experience, and I've decided not to ask myself anymore questions about whether or not I made the right decision. I am going to keep moving forward and make the best of what life gives me.
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